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Thursday, May 20, 2010
Recognizing my potential...
I am coming to the end of an "era" and era of misunderstanding on my part. I have come to a point in which I must become something, or be left always wanting. I am finally discovering my full potential.
Life, with its many challenges from day to day can overwhelm the senses and block out the spirit. It can find within it a doom and gloom of which is not necessary. I am tired of being the "victim" of my circumstances. In reality, my circumstances are not bad...at all. I have hurdles to jump like every other human being, but really, motherhood is not an "emergency"! It's a time to embrace the fullest potential of yourself as a person.
I love my family. I love to create. I love to experience the joys that come with everything life has to offer. And there is SO much! I have ahead of me so many more years of love and creating! I can't afford to sit around wondering what it might be like, "if only" I didn't have kids hanging on me wanting things to do. I am going to make for them a world to explore within our home. I am going to create a place where I can explore my artistic side. I am going to put COLOR into every corner of this house. And not just any color, colors and patterns I ADORE. What is the use of having things you only "like"? Life is for us to LOVE.
I am an amazing Mom. End of story. I am going to start acting like it.
Life, with its many challenges from day to day can overwhelm the senses and block out the spirit. It can find within it a doom and gloom of which is not necessary. I am tired of being the "victim" of my circumstances. In reality, my circumstances are not bad...at all. I have hurdles to jump like every other human being, but really, motherhood is not an "emergency"! It's a time to embrace the fullest potential of yourself as a person.
I love my family. I love to create. I love to experience the joys that come with everything life has to offer. And there is SO much! I have ahead of me so many more years of love and creating! I can't afford to sit around wondering what it might be like, "if only" I didn't have kids hanging on me wanting things to do. I am going to make for them a world to explore within our home. I am going to create a place where I can explore my artistic side. I am going to put COLOR into every corner of this house. And not just any color, colors and patterns I ADORE. What is the use of having things you only "like"? Life is for us to LOVE.
I am an amazing Mom. End of story. I am going to start acting like it.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Contemplative moments...
We went up to visit Deric's grandparents (on the Abel side) on Sunday and along the way I was thinking (since it is a long drive). I thought about how "Uneasy I was in the world". I know that sounds strange but let me explain.
I have noticed recently how many people around me are devoid of common courtesy, etiquette, and manners. How many people have you seen ignore the fact someone is driving and just step out in front of them as if they must stop because this person is special, like Moses and the Red Sea or something. How many people butt in line? How many people answer their phone when there is someone trying to have a conversation with them? How many people sidestep the responsibility of teaching their child that you shouldn't run into other people's yards without asking, or eat the food while they are at the grocery store? How many people just don't answer their phone when they just don't want to have to "deal" with whomever it is for whatever reason? Why have people become so rude to one another? Why so selfish?
The sad part is, I don't have a real answer. I can only speculate with my experiences and the changes I have seen in the 24 odd years of my lifetime. That I have even seen a change in people in that short a time is a testament to humanity. It used to be that people would smile at each other, hold doors happily, and even say "hello" to total strangers. People were friendly. I still do those things...I see no reason not to.
My thoughts are these: We are overwhelmed. Yes, overwhelmed with the zillions of possibilities for us each day that we have a hard time looking outside of ourselves. We don't slow down anymore. We are constantly dealing with the barrage of information coming in and out of our lives. Also, we have been taught of late that we "deserve" this or "deserve" that. Even if we have never worked for it a day in our lives. This attitude makes us selfish with our time and money. I wish I knew how to change it back to the way it was. But, it's lost in the world. The least I can do is instill these traits in my children.
Since Sunday I have continued thinking about all sorts of things. It occurred to me that the reason women hate it so much when their husbands "try to fix them" is because that implies that they were "broken" in the first place. That is a hard thing for women to handle. We are extremely hard on ourselves. Even if what has happened has nothing whatsoever to do with us. We take on all responsibility for the world. Which is just not right. This may also explain why women are hesitant to go to counselors for any number of issues.
I also realized that I am a rare breed of mother that is under no disillusion about my children. I know they are amazing individuals, and that they have so much potential and so much ability. But, I also know that they can be bratty, and they can be obnoxious and mean. When other moms say things like, "My little child is so smart, they are so kind and sweet" and the next moment this kid is bashing in other kid's heads I have to laugh. Then the mom is reprimanding by saying, "Oh hun, you know, you shouldn't do that". I just have to cringe. I let them know it's wrong...not just "something maybe you shouldn't do". Haha! I love my kids dearly, but when they are acting badly I don't cater to them at all.
Anywho, just some little tidbits I have been contemplating. I hope to start feeling more "easy in my world" soon. I need to just realize that this little family is the only thing that I can really count on fully.
I have noticed recently how many people around me are devoid of common courtesy, etiquette, and manners. How many people have you seen ignore the fact someone is driving and just step out in front of them as if they must stop because this person is special, like Moses and the Red Sea or something. How many people butt in line? How many people answer their phone when there is someone trying to have a conversation with them? How many people sidestep the responsibility of teaching their child that you shouldn't run into other people's yards without asking, or eat the food while they are at the grocery store? How many people just don't answer their phone when they just don't want to have to "deal" with whomever it is for whatever reason? Why have people become so rude to one another? Why so selfish?
The sad part is, I don't have a real answer. I can only speculate with my experiences and the changes I have seen in the 24 odd years of my lifetime. That I have even seen a change in people in that short a time is a testament to humanity. It used to be that people would smile at each other, hold doors happily, and even say "hello" to total strangers. People were friendly. I still do those things...I see no reason not to.
My thoughts are these: We are overwhelmed. Yes, overwhelmed with the zillions of possibilities for us each day that we have a hard time looking outside of ourselves. We don't slow down anymore. We are constantly dealing with the barrage of information coming in and out of our lives. Also, we have been taught of late that we "deserve" this or "deserve" that. Even if we have never worked for it a day in our lives. This attitude makes us selfish with our time and money. I wish I knew how to change it back to the way it was. But, it's lost in the world. The least I can do is instill these traits in my children.
Since Sunday I have continued thinking about all sorts of things. It occurred to me that the reason women hate it so much when their husbands "try to fix them" is because that implies that they were "broken" in the first place. That is a hard thing for women to handle. We are extremely hard on ourselves. Even if what has happened has nothing whatsoever to do with us. We take on all responsibility for the world. Which is just not right. This may also explain why women are hesitant to go to counselors for any number of issues.
I also realized that I am a rare breed of mother that is under no disillusion about my children. I know they are amazing individuals, and that they have so much potential and so much ability. But, I also know that they can be bratty, and they can be obnoxious and mean. When other moms say things like, "My little child is so smart, they are so kind and sweet" and the next moment this kid is bashing in other kid's heads I have to laugh. Then the mom is reprimanding by saying, "Oh hun, you know, you shouldn't do that". I just have to cringe. I let them know it's wrong...not just "something maybe you shouldn't do". Haha! I love my kids dearly, but when they are acting badly I don't cater to them at all.
Anywho, just some little tidbits I have been contemplating. I hope to start feeling more "easy in my world" soon. I need to just realize that this little family is the only thing that I can really count on fully.
Friday, May 14, 2010
$138.05
That's how much I sold at my yard sale today. It's a wonderful thing to get rid of things you don't need in exchange for money. $103.75 of that is my money. :) I'm hoping tomorrow will go even better. It was pretty slow today for a Friday. I think everyone was apprehensive about the weather. I am planning on a bright sunshiny day tomorrow...so it better deliver! ;-)
Thursday, May 13, 2010
A Facelift for my Blog...
I hope you all enjoy the new things I have done to my blog. It's all very aesthetically pleasing now! I also have tickers for my kid's birthdays and our trips and anniversary, and even for how long I've been breastfeeding! (Some of you may not care, but it's a big accomplishment for me since only something like 7% of women get this far anymore!)
Tomorrow and Saturday is my BIG ANNUAL YARD SALE! I am super excited. I have to call around and double check with people about bringing things. It may be smaller this year than it has been, but it's always fun for me to do. Don't ask why, I can't explain it. I am a yard sale junkie! I hope to sell all my stuff so I have money to spend at yard sales. Haha!
We got pictures taken for Mother's Day to give to all the Moms and Grandmas. :) Here they are:
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Dedicated to my kids...
Today is Mother's Day. I got a book from Deric and the girls.
Something cute River said the other day:
I gave her some of my homemade applesauce and she asked for more saying, "Mommy, can I have some more apple sugar?" :)
We went into her bedroom the other night and Moss had murdered a robin in there. It was a major mess...blood and feathers EVERYWHERE. The bad thing was I didn't notice until we were both fully in the room. Then I told River to come with me quickly, she was freaking out a little. Poor thing. We evacuated and went up the stairs. Deric, hearing all the commotion asked us, "Is it really that bad?" River said as concerned as can be, "Yes Daddy, it's really that bad!" It took us half an hour to clean everything up. Yuck.
Molly is adoring "running around" on the couch. She climbs all over it and goes head-first off the side onto the pillows on the floor. (that we put there for safety purposes) She could just do that for hours! It's too cute!
I had an impression the other day that Molly might just have a special purpose in this life. Like a mission. I don't know what exactly, but I just distinctly felt that when I looked at her the other day being so sweet and loving. She is a true sweetheart.
I love my kids, they are the greatest joy I could have ever been given. I hope to always love them as deeply as I do now, and deeper. I bore my testimony today that though Mothers tend to be down on themselves and never feel like they are doing enough they shouldn't worry. Because I know one thing is for sure, Christ loves us, and he would never be so cruel as to expect us to be perfect. I know that. If that's all I ever know, it is enough.
Happy Mother's Day all!
Something cute River said the other day:
I gave her some of my homemade applesauce and she asked for more saying, "Mommy, can I have some more apple sugar?" :)
We went into her bedroom the other night and Moss had murdered a robin in there. It was a major mess...blood and feathers EVERYWHERE. The bad thing was I didn't notice until we were both fully in the room. Then I told River to come with me quickly, she was freaking out a little. Poor thing. We evacuated and went up the stairs. Deric, hearing all the commotion asked us, "Is it really that bad?" River said as concerned as can be, "Yes Daddy, it's really that bad!" It took us half an hour to clean everything up. Yuck.
Molly is adoring "running around" on the couch. She climbs all over it and goes head-first off the side onto the pillows on the floor. (that we put there for safety purposes) She could just do that for hours! It's too cute!
I had an impression the other day that Molly might just have a special purpose in this life. Like a mission. I don't know what exactly, but I just distinctly felt that when I looked at her the other day being so sweet and loving. She is a true sweetheart.
I love my kids, they are the greatest joy I could have ever been given. I hope to always love them as deeply as I do now, and deeper. I bore my testimony today that though Mothers tend to be down on themselves and never feel like they are doing enough they shouldn't worry. Because I know one thing is for sure, Christ loves us, and he would never be so cruel as to expect us to be perfect. I know that. If that's all I ever know, it is enough.
Happy Mother's Day all!
Saturday, April 3, 2010
will it end???
It sadly has been snowing for the last week here...ugh.
SO, Deric is snowmobiling today. We skipped out on camping because of the weather, and the fact our kids are still getting over their sinus infections. We didn't want to deal with sleepless nights.
Molly has slept through the night twice this week! That is a HUGE success. I hope that she will keep it up. I am really worn out from the waking up so much at night. I have been letting her cry herself back to sleep a little and last night I put her to bed tired but not asleep. I also fed her cereal right before bed. I think we will do that from now on...
We went to our friend, Gina's, surprise party last night. It was really nice to get out of the house...albeit only for about 2 hours. Still...every little bit counts for me, since I am so rarely able to get out without the kids. But, since Joan seems to not be too thrilled about watching them in the evenings, I think from now on if we go out then we will find someone else to watch our kids so we can actually stay the whole time for these things. We always have to be back by 9 or earlier because she can't handle the "late" hour. Oh well...It was bound to happen.
Well, gonna nap a minute.
SO, Deric is snowmobiling today. We skipped out on camping because of the weather, and the fact our kids are still getting over their sinus infections. We didn't want to deal with sleepless nights.
Molly has slept through the night twice this week! That is a HUGE success. I hope that she will keep it up. I am really worn out from the waking up so much at night. I have been letting her cry herself back to sleep a little and last night I put her to bed tired but not asleep. I also fed her cereal right before bed. I think we will do that from now on...
We went to our friend, Gina's, surprise party last night. It was really nice to get out of the house...albeit only for about 2 hours. Still...every little bit counts for me, since I am so rarely able to get out without the kids. But, since Joan seems to not be too thrilled about watching them in the evenings, I think from now on if we go out then we will find someone else to watch our kids so we can actually stay the whole time for these things. We always have to be back by 9 or earlier because she can't handle the "late" hour. Oh well...It was bound to happen.
Well, gonna nap a minute.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
...windy.
Well, I am approaching the Easter Holiday this weekend. We are going to be up at Crystal Hot Springs with Monica and fam(Deric's half sister). It will be Conference weekend, so we will be watching it in our trailer. The reality is it is supposed to rain the whole time, so what better weekend of camping for that to happen than this one! But, this will be our first camping trip of the season. The next weekend will be Deric's LAST snowmobile trip of the season. :) YAY!
Easter is always one of those holidays that we don't do a whole lot with. Easter baskets, and Conference mostly...but we hope to keep the tradition of it being our first camping trip each year since we don't have any extended family that we can really spend it with. (Monica really just stays in her trailer the whole time...haha!) But as our kids get older maybe we can make it a little more interesting and fun! (maybe I'll do an egg hunt for River this year in our trailer...)
Ginny will be here from the 9-11th which will be nice. I haven't seen her since Molly was about 2 1/2 weeks old. (She will be 8 months old on the 7th--crazy!) Ginny will be bringing her boyfriend Greg. :-) I'm excited to meet him! (though, seems he is a little apprehensive himself...) Muahahahaha! ;-) River is always asking for her, so it will be nice for them to get to bond a little more.
I accomplished my indoor Spring cleaning so far. I also did the trailer and carport. Now all that is left is the yard projects (and my storage room/emergency preparedness stuff). I'm pretty proud of us. We built our square foot gardens and have peas planted. I am also putting together some of the playground things so that will emerge in the next month or so. Deric is wanting to build a deck under/around our tree by the playground where we can put our fire pit and chairs to hang out back there when the kids are playing. I really like the idea, and I think it is something we would really use since it is in the shade and near the kids' play area. He said he might even do it this year. Which would be really nice. :-)
We are all sick AGAIN. I haven't worked out in so long...I feel like a slug. I hope that this weekend brings health, and the ability to kick it into gear for my exercise program again! I neeeeeeed to get in shape! I want to lose 10lbs at *least*.
I had a Hollywood themed girl's night on Saturday. It was really fun to sit and chat with my friends Heidi, Marcie, and Alaris. (that was who showed up) We had an award ceremony for our celebrity costumes, chatted, had a magic show by Deric, played a little DDR, and ate food. I have been eating it ever since, I'm sure it is contributing to my feeling gross...Ah well, it's nice to get some girl time on occasion. It seems they want to do it again too!
Well, off to accomplish something...toodles!
Easter is always one of those holidays that we don't do a whole lot with. Easter baskets, and Conference mostly...but we hope to keep the tradition of it being our first camping trip each year since we don't have any extended family that we can really spend it with. (Monica really just stays in her trailer the whole time...haha!) But as our kids get older maybe we can make it a little more interesting and fun! (maybe I'll do an egg hunt for River this year in our trailer...)
Ginny will be here from the 9-11th which will be nice. I haven't seen her since Molly was about 2 1/2 weeks old. (She will be 8 months old on the 7th--crazy!) Ginny will be bringing her boyfriend Greg. :-) I'm excited to meet him! (though, seems he is a little apprehensive himself...) Muahahahaha! ;-) River is always asking for her, so it will be nice for them to get to bond a little more.
I accomplished my indoor Spring cleaning so far. I also did the trailer and carport. Now all that is left is the yard projects (and my storage room/emergency preparedness stuff). I'm pretty proud of us. We built our square foot gardens and have peas planted. I am also putting together some of the playground things so that will emerge in the next month or so. Deric is wanting to build a deck under/around our tree by the playground where we can put our fire pit and chairs to hang out back there when the kids are playing. I really like the idea, and I think it is something we would really use since it is in the shade and near the kids' play area. He said he might even do it this year. Which would be really nice. :-)
We are all sick AGAIN. I haven't worked out in so long...I feel like a slug. I hope that this weekend brings health, and the ability to kick it into gear for my exercise program again! I neeeeeeed to get in shape! I want to lose 10lbs at *least*.
I had a Hollywood themed girl's night on Saturday. It was really fun to sit and chat with my friends Heidi, Marcie, and Alaris. (that was who showed up) We had an award ceremony for our celebrity costumes, chatted, had a magic show by Deric, played a little DDR, and ate food. I have been eating it ever since, I'm sure it is contributing to my feeling gross...Ah well, it's nice to get some girl time on occasion. It seems they want to do it again too!
Well, off to accomplish something...toodles!
Sunday, March 14, 2010
An upset...
After two weeks of battling sickness and ornery-non-sleeping Molly child I am finally to the point I can start my exercising again. Tomorrow I will begin again.
No the upsetting part: The stupid Wii fit says I am "overweight". Grand, now I have like 20lbs to lose, as opposed to my 11lbs that I thought I was down to....*grumble, grumble, grumble*.
Anyway, I have made my "spring cleaning" list. I rearranged the living room a little. I got out my scrapbooks and started figuring out what I need to do to get caught up. AND, I am going to be making those awesome homemade chocolate dipped Easter Eggs this week. :-D Yay!
Easter weekend will be our annual camping trip with Monica and her family. Conference is that weekend so we watch it in the trailer. :-) I'm excited for this season to get under way!
Molly has 2 teeth that have pushed through...and I think I am paying for it. She slept only 4 hours last night
.....heaven help me!
No the upsetting part: The stupid Wii fit says I am "overweight". Grand, now I have like 20lbs to lose, as opposed to my 11lbs that I thought I was down to....*grumble, grumble, grumble*.
Anyway, I have made my "spring cleaning" list. I rearranged the living room a little. I got out my scrapbooks and started figuring out what I need to do to get caught up. AND, I am going to be making those awesome homemade chocolate dipped Easter Eggs this week. :-D Yay!
Easter weekend will be our annual camping trip with Monica and her family. Conference is that weekend so we watch it in the trailer. :-) I'm excited for this season to get under way!
Molly has 2 teeth that have pushed through...and I think I am paying for it. She slept only 4 hours last night
.....heaven help me!
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Down 4 pounds...
I have managed to exercise on average every other day. (meaning, not really every other day, but pretty much every day for like 4 days and then not until 4 days later...haha) But, I have still managed to drop just about 4 pounds. According to the wii measurements. So, I am not positive it is totally true. BUT, I think that I look skinnier and my belly is flatter. I eat less too. Which is a major plus. Not snacking like I used to.
My head is in a whirl....just so much going on up there. I don't know how to slow it down either.
I planned out my garden (this is what I am planting):
FLOWERS:
California Poppy
Viola-Johnny Jump Ups
HERBS:
Oregano
Mint
VEGGIES:
Tomatoes
Sweet bell peppers
Green Bell peppers
Onion-yellow
Spinach
broccoli
peas
lettuce-romaine
pumpkin-jack o lantern
green beans-bush
watermelon-seedless
cantaloupe
cucumbers
carrots-mini
potatoes-red
honeydew
corn
radish
turnip-purple top
I got the vermiculite, weed barrier, and the peat moss. So, we are getting closer to getting started! :-)
My head is in a whirl....just so much going on up there. I don't know how to slow it down either.
I planned out my garden (this is what I am planting):
FLOWERS:
California Poppy
Viola-Johnny Jump Ups
HERBS:
Oregano
Mint
VEGGIES:
Tomatoes
Sweet bell peppers
Green Bell peppers
Onion-yellow
Spinach
broccoli
peas
lettuce-romaine
pumpkin-jack o lantern
green beans-bush
watermelon-seedless
cantaloupe
cucumbers
carrots-mini
potatoes-red
honeydew
corn
radish
turnip-purple top
I got the vermiculite, weed barrier, and the peat moss. So, we are getting closer to getting started! :-)
Thursday, February 18, 2010
A new me!
I have started exercising every day!
Deric watches Molly after I put River to bed and I do my routine on the Wii Fit Plus. :-) I exercise about 38 minutes. Which, I think is pretty awesome! My goal is to lose 10 pounds and tone up these muscles. I don't have any excuse not to exercise, so, I'm not taking any...
I just decided that if I want to be happier, have more energy, and be a better mom I better start taking better care of myself. I don't want to turn into a blob of a mother. I don't want to dread every day because I am just to tired to enjoy it. I want to feel good. This makes it possible. Even if I am tired because I didn't get enough sleep, I am still more alert. I love how I feel and I have only been doing it for three days. But that is longer than I have done this type of thing in the past! Haha!
I just want to wake up and seize the day.
I bought poppys and violas for my flower bed. :-) I also, got some of the other items I will need for my boxes; weed barrier, vermiculite, and peat moss. I'm excited!
I had a vision of what I want to do with my back yard. I plan on making a play area for the kids reminiscent of fairy-land. I am going to make large wood cutout flowers and paint them, along with woodland creatures. I think I am also going to make a mushroom seating area. I think it will turn out super cute!
Well, to bed...
Deric watches Molly after I put River to bed and I do my routine on the Wii Fit Plus. :-) I exercise about 38 minutes. Which, I think is pretty awesome! My goal is to lose 10 pounds and tone up these muscles. I don't have any excuse not to exercise, so, I'm not taking any...
I just decided that if I want to be happier, have more energy, and be a better mom I better start taking better care of myself. I don't want to turn into a blob of a mother. I don't want to dread every day because I am just to tired to enjoy it. I want to feel good. This makes it possible. Even if I am tired because I didn't get enough sleep, I am still more alert. I love how I feel and I have only been doing it for three days. But that is longer than I have done this type of thing in the past! Haha!
I just want to wake up and seize the day.
I bought poppys and violas for my flower bed. :-) I also, got some of the other items I will need for my boxes; weed barrier, vermiculite, and peat moss. I'm excited!
I had a vision of what I want to do with my back yard. I plan on making a play area for the kids reminiscent of fairy-land. I am going to make large wood cutout flowers and paint them, along with woodland creatures. I think I am also going to make a mushroom seating area. I think it will turn out super cute!
Well, to bed...
Monday, February 8, 2010
Sick...
Grr...
I had to get sick. It happens every year about this time though. At least it isn't terrible...just a sore throat and stuffed up ears and sinuses. I can get through it though, I am just really tired too. Molly doesn't help matters. I just don't know how to get her to sleep at night. It's really hard on my system...and hard on my marriage. Deric is always saying he doesn't want any more kids. It makes me mad. Ugh, anyway.
It has been springlike weather this week! We went walking yesterday and we have been out playing a little bit about 4 days this past week. :-) I am so excited to get to spring. I am going to be starting my compost here soon to make sure we have it ready for when we start our square foot gardens. Heidi and I are gathering tossed produce, coffee grounds, and chicken manure from people to make compost. Since those are all free, and it would be cheaper for us to get started on our gardens then. Since they are a little pricey up front. ($200 for all supplies) I have been finding wood and such on KSL for free to make it less costly too. :-) Plus, I am going to get in on the seed order through our class to save about 15%.
Well...ttyl, resting time...
I had to get sick. It happens every year about this time though. At least it isn't terrible...just a sore throat and stuffed up ears and sinuses. I can get through it though, I am just really tired too. Molly doesn't help matters. I just don't know how to get her to sleep at night. It's really hard on my system...and hard on my marriage. Deric is always saying he doesn't want any more kids. It makes me mad. Ugh, anyway.
It has been springlike weather this week! We went walking yesterday and we have been out playing a little bit about 4 days this past week. :-) I am so excited to get to spring. I am going to be starting my compost here soon to make sure we have it ready for when we start our square foot gardens. Heidi and I are gathering tossed produce, coffee grounds, and chicken manure from people to make compost. Since those are all free, and it would be cheaper for us to get started on our gardens then. Since they are a little pricey up front. ($200 for all supplies) I have been finding wood and such on KSL for free to make it less costly too. :-) Plus, I am going to get in on the seed order through our class to save about 15%.
Well...ttyl, resting time...
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Life is...
Well, it is not perfect...
It is not glamorous...
It is work.
It is sacrifice.
It is difficult.
BUT,
I will reap the rewards.
I do reap the rewards.
I can reap the rewards.
...What a week. I have had this much enthusiasm for it [.]
Yes, I mean it. I enjoyed taking some pictures of my Little People (vintage) that I bought this week. They make me smile. I am trying to get a collection going for my kids to play with. I think they are better toys than anything we have these days, and they are 30 years old! Here are a couple pictures.
I am at my wit's end today. More tired than anything. I'm just not willing to deal with an ornery two year old and a crying baby today. Ugh...
I always get to February and fall apart...why?
Well, it is not perfect...
It is not glamorous...
It is work.
It is sacrifice.
It is difficult.
BUT,
I will reap the rewards.
I do reap the rewards.
I can reap the rewards.
...What a week. I have had this much enthusiasm for it [.]
Yes, I mean it. I enjoyed taking some pictures of my Little People (vintage) that I bought this week. They make me smile. I am trying to get a collection going for my kids to play with. I think they are better toys than anything we have these days, and they are 30 years old! Here are a couple pictures.
I am at my wit's end today. More tired than anything. I'm just not willing to deal with an ornery two year old and a crying baby today. Ugh...
I always get to February and fall apart...why?
Saturday, January 16, 2010
On my own...
Oooo, this is why I don't like winter. I am husbandless for the majority of the weekends. He has friends here, or is at friend's houses, or is snowmobiling. It's nice that he has that opportunity. But, I would like more opportunity to do something I enjoy. I get taken on snowmobile type outings. They are ok, but I am so tired by them...and they are really something Deric enjoys doing, not me. He gets mad whenever I say that. He threatens to get rid of the snowmobiles. The reality is that I know he would make my life miserable for it. So, I never let him.
I am taking a "Square foot Gardening" class with my friend Heidi. It's four weeks long and runs an hour and a half on Wednesdays. I think it will be fun. :-) Then I can better utilize my garden this year. This will at least break up the mundane weeks through mid-February.
I told Deric we should take a dance class...he wasn't interested. He says there are too many things he already wishes he could do and doesn't have the time for. Those things don't include me. Not that he said that, it's just the reality of it. I grow sad sometimes at how much we don't spend time with each other. But, really, our interests don't overlap in many areas. Camping is one thing we do enjoy doing together. Other than that, we spend a lot of time in front of the TV. I had always hoped to pretty much ban that from my house. A movie on occasion was fine...But, again, it is the reality of things. I do enjoy "Chuck" and "The Big Bang Theory" however.
I want to get my pictures printed so that I can start on Molly's scrapbook and our new year's scrapbook. I want to get the Millersburg pictures too...I would love to sit and write up that book. Anywho...
I am just sad today. Things looks so gloomy when it is smoggy and foggy outside. Not much of a day to enjoy. The air is so bad that if you go out in it it is like smoking a cigarette. One thing about Utah I truly despise. Oh well, such is life sometimes...
I do love my life. There are just some things that aren't perfect.
I am taking a "Square foot Gardening" class with my friend Heidi. It's four weeks long and runs an hour and a half on Wednesdays. I think it will be fun. :-) Then I can better utilize my garden this year. This will at least break up the mundane weeks through mid-February.
I told Deric we should take a dance class...he wasn't interested. He says there are too many things he already wishes he could do and doesn't have the time for. Those things don't include me. Not that he said that, it's just the reality of it. I grow sad sometimes at how much we don't spend time with each other. But, really, our interests don't overlap in many areas. Camping is one thing we do enjoy doing together. Other than that, we spend a lot of time in front of the TV. I had always hoped to pretty much ban that from my house. A movie on occasion was fine...But, again, it is the reality of things. I do enjoy "Chuck" and "The Big Bang Theory" however.
I want to get my pictures printed so that I can start on Molly's scrapbook and our new year's scrapbook. I want to get the Millersburg pictures too...I would love to sit and write up that book. Anywho...
I am just sad today. Things looks so gloomy when it is smoggy and foggy outside. Not much of a day to enjoy. The air is so bad that if you go out in it it is like smoking a cigarette. One thing about Utah I truly despise. Oh well, such is life sometimes...
I do love my life. There are just some things that aren't perfect.
Monday, January 4, 2010
A New Year...
The New Year came in with a bang. We stayed up until 5, which was a mistake...I finally got caught up on sleep yesterday. We moved Deric into his new office on New Year's Eve. We were able to get a lot of it done. At this point we have moved one of the bunk's beds in there and I have one in my craft room. I put up all his pictures and stuff up on the walls. Then I decided to do mine in my craft room. It looks a lot more colorful and fun. I figure I have 2 years to be in there at least...and that's just until we move Deric in with me. It will be nice to have my own space that doesn't seem so crowded. Maybe I will actually get to do some crafts. I have to make some curtains for our two rooms...we will see what I can come up with. I'll post pictures of the room soon.
New Year's Resolution:
Do a Detox diet this month (exercising comes with it). And after that...
Become "semi-vegetarians"; meaning..we are eating only 1 meal a week with meat in it. We can eat meat when we go out or to a party (or host one), but we eat mostly vegetarian meals at home. Basically, following the "moderation in all things" concept with meat. It really isn't super good for you anyway. Especially in the summer time. I think the detox diet and watching our meat intake will help with lethargy.:-)
Deric came up with a super cute idea for using the space under the stairs in the theater room. The front portion will be a closet and then the lower part (that you have to duck to get into) will be a PLAYHOUSE! :-) I am so excited about that since I was wanting that in my dream house and Deric found a way to give it to me. The best part is I get my storage and a fun place for our kids to play and store toys! I have a little couch and River's kitchen we can put in there. I plan on putting a little door and a window in the wall (in the theater room), and painting a house on the wall as well. It will be SO fun. :-) This way they have some place to escape to in the winter when they can't go outside. And...all of my kids will be able to use it while they are little. Ahh, it just feels so nice to have such a fun plan for this house! (since I am going to be here the rest of my life it seems) The great thing is we already have all the carpet for under the stairs because they gave us the remnants. :-)
Here's to a New Year full of FUN, PROSPERITY, HEALTH, STRENGTH, MOTIVATION, JOY, and LOVE. :-)
New Year's Resolution:
Do a Detox diet this month (exercising comes with it). And after that...
Become "semi-vegetarians"; meaning..we are eating only 1 meal a week with meat in it. We can eat meat when we go out or to a party (or host one), but we eat mostly vegetarian meals at home. Basically, following the "moderation in all things" concept with meat. It really isn't super good for you anyway. Especially in the summer time. I think the detox diet and watching our meat intake will help with lethargy.:-)
Deric came up with a super cute idea for using the space under the stairs in the theater room. The front portion will be a closet and then the lower part (that you have to duck to get into) will be a PLAYHOUSE! :-) I am so excited about that since I was wanting that in my dream house and Deric found a way to give it to me. The best part is I get my storage and a fun place for our kids to play and store toys! I have a little couch and River's kitchen we can put in there. I plan on putting a little door and a window in the wall (in the theater room), and painting a house on the wall as well. It will be SO fun. :-) This way they have some place to escape to in the winter when they can't go outside. And...all of my kids will be able to use it while they are little. Ahh, it just feels so nice to have such a fun plan for this house! (since I am going to be here the rest of my life it seems) The great thing is we already have all the carpet for under the stairs because they gave us the remnants. :-)
Here's to a New Year full of FUN, PROSPERITY, HEALTH, STRENGTH, MOTIVATION, JOY, and LOVE. :-)
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Tomorrow is Christmas Eve...
It feels so odd to be doing nothing today...to be so close to Christmas, to feel like it has gotten away from me, and that the excitement I have been used to my whole life is somehow escaping me a bit. I am excited to have a Christmas at home with my little family, but I just feel like it is not the same. I can't wait until my kids get excited about it. I think next year River will be counting down the days until Christmas and that will bring more excitement.
Deric has done so well this year! He got all my gifts before last week, and they will all be here in time. He actually is getting excited about holidays and realizing how he can take part and enjoy them with us! I am so grateful for his coming around. I just hope my hesitating with the Christmas cheer this year doesn't ruin it for him.
We get our carpet on Tuesday next week! To say I am "excited" would be the understatement of the year! We finish painting the ceilings and trim Saturday...or maybe Christmas. Then we will be all set for the downstairs bedroom and hallway to be done! I just can't wait to get it all done down there; theater, bathroom, and my craft room. :-)
Tonight we are going to the Kimber side's Christmas party. It is always a little bit...er, boring...but it is good to have family that is happy to have us around at least. Even if we do just stare at each other. Tomorrow is the Meldrum side Christmas party...that will be interesting as always. I just hope that it will be a good one. I can't wait to give Joan her gift, we got a hardback book printed with pictures from us and Evette and family. It will be wonderful to see her reaction to it! (It took a week of work!) Christmas day we are spending with our little family. Just opening presents in the morning, then awaiting Doug's call. It will be nice to talk to him again.
What a year...it is swiftly drawing to a close. I pray next year brings much happiness, excitement, and joy...not to mention continued good health and prosperity. :-) I wish that for all of you too!
Deric has done so well this year! He got all my gifts before last week, and they will all be here in time. He actually is getting excited about holidays and realizing how he can take part and enjoy them with us! I am so grateful for his coming around. I just hope my hesitating with the Christmas cheer this year doesn't ruin it for him.
We get our carpet on Tuesday next week! To say I am "excited" would be the understatement of the year! We finish painting the ceilings and trim Saturday...or maybe Christmas. Then we will be all set for the downstairs bedroom and hallway to be done! I just can't wait to get it all done down there; theater, bathroom, and my craft room. :-)
Tonight we are going to the Kimber side's Christmas party. It is always a little bit...er, boring...but it is good to have family that is happy to have us around at least. Even if we do just stare at each other. Tomorrow is the Meldrum side Christmas party...that will be interesting as always. I just hope that it will be a good one. I can't wait to give Joan her gift, we got a hardback book printed with pictures from us and Evette and family. It will be wonderful to see her reaction to it! (It took a week of work!) Christmas day we are spending with our little family. Just opening presents in the morning, then awaiting Doug's call. It will be nice to talk to him again.
What a year...it is swiftly drawing to a close. I pray next year brings much happiness, excitement, and joy...not to mention continued good health and prosperity. :-) I wish that for all of you too!
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Crunch time...
We ordered the carpet for downstairs! We went with a higher grade (premium) carpet instead of what our upstairs carpet is. It is close in shade to upstairs but without speckles and without the twist. I hope I don't kick myself for having gotten it. It is a light color...I should have compared it to the paint color...eh, oh well, at least it is coming soon enough. 1 1/2 weeks until Christmas and just two and a half in the year/decade! What a crazy last few years this has been. I am excited for the years to come.
I am spending the majority of my week at Alaris' house. She is having me help her with a video she is doing for Christmas presents for everyone in their family. She has to have it done by friday in order for it to make it to all of them in time, more like in the mail friday. We will see how it goes. I am happy River will get to play with her friends, but it will also be a lot of work for me.
I am spending the majority of my week at Alaris' house. She is having me help her with a video she is doing for Christmas presents for everyone in their family. She has to have it done by friday in order for it to make it to all of them in time, more like in the mail friday. We will see how it goes. I am happy River will get to play with her friends, but it will also be a lot of work for me.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Christmas is creeping up on me!
I feel like I have no time to enjoy the holiday this year. I am just running around trying to get the things done for Christmas. I went to a couple parties, which was fun. But, it seems like it is getting away from me this year. Well, off to work on gifts....
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Yes, it has been a while...
So, I realized that blogging is really exciting and fun for the first few times you do it and then it gets a little bit hard to keep up. Just like journaling. I did write in my journal about my trip out to PA though. So, yay me!
So, my trip out to PA was interesting. It was really a great trip all around, but there were a lot of things that made me really think about what I am thankful for. That is particularly good because I was there over Thanksgiving and I haven't sat down and contemplated it to that degree for a very long time. My family's life is kind of in an uproar at the moment as they have a rather untidy family living with them. It opened my eyes to just how lucky I am to have a semi-tidy husband, and one that encourages me to clean. Odd as that sounds. I am grateful for children that are fast learners and for the fact River speaks with such fluency and can say all her letters. My children will not be behind in any schooling, I can tell already. I am grateful for the fact my husband has a great job and has so much more self-worth now than he did before we were married, and even in the first part of our marriage. I am grateful that I was able to have my grandparents in my life for as long as I have and that Grandpa Bill was in my life when Grandpa Phil couldn't be. I am so grateful for having my own house to do with what I want, but that I get the opportunity to help others with theirs on occasion. (It's fun to clean someone else's house!) Haha! Life really is, that good. ;-)
We are nearly completed in the hallway and bedroom downstairs, a few more touch ups on the walls in the hall and then trim and ceiling paint to do. We order our carpet next week and get it installed around the beginning of the year! I am soooo happy for it to be so close. (Though, I wish we could be getting carpet IN next week!) The paint color is gorgeous, I went downstairs and thought that the light was on, but it was just the sunlight reflecting off the color! Beautiful! Deric isn't too thrilled, but he only gets it as his office a little under two years. (until the next child is born.) Hooray for getting rid of more of the brown in this house though!
I have been working on Christmas presents and cards the last few days. Got the pictures printed and ordered, got Doug's gift ordered (an 8-bit tie--think: Mario pixels), Molly's gift ordered (a bib with a runway on it and a matching airplane spoon! They light up!), Plus, Joan's gift ordered (a book of pictures from us and Evette's family--she complained about not having us in the one the step siblings did last year.), plus more that I can't tell you about. Hehe! I got all the neighborhood gifts out this week too (purple ornaments with a little "reminder" attached about Christ being "King", get it? Royal purple...anyway). I am excited about Christmas, but behind on getting the tree up, we put it together tonight, and will decorate it tomorrow.
I had a terrible night last night of about 4 hours total of sleep. Molly was wide awake for some reason...so, off to bed I go. Goodnight! Happy Holidays!
So, my trip out to PA was interesting. It was really a great trip all around, but there were a lot of things that made me really think about what I am thankful for. That is particularly good because I was there over Thanksgiving and I haven't sat down and contemplated it to that degree for a very long time. My family's life is kind of in an uproar at the moment as they have a rather untidy family living with them. It opened my eyes to just how lucky I am to have a semi-tidy husband, and one that encourages me to clean. Odd as that sounds. I am grateful for children that are fast learners and for the fact River speaks with such fluency and can say all her letters. My children will not be behind in any schooling, I can tell already. I am grateful for the fact my husband has a great job and has so much more self-worth now than he did before we were married, and even in the first part of our marriage. I am grateful that I was able to have my grandparents in my life for as long as I have and that Grandpa Bill was in my life when Grandpa Phil couldn't be. I am so grateful for having my own house to do with what I want, but that I get the opportunity to help others with theirs on occasion. (It's fun to clean someone else's house!) Haha! Life really is, that good. ;-)
We are nearly completed in the hallway and bedroom downstairs, a few more touch ups on the walls in the hall and then trim and ceiling paint to do. We order our carpet next week and get it installed around the beginning of the year! I am soooo happy for it to be so close. (Though, I wish we could be getting carpet IN next week!) The paint color is gorgeous, I went downstairs and thought that the light was on, but it was just the sunlight reflecting off the color! Beautiful! Deric isn't too thrilled, but he only gets it as his office a little under two years. (until the next child is born.) Hooray for getting rid of more of the brown in this house though!
I have been working on Christmas presents and cards the last few days. Got the pictures printed and ordered, got Doug's gift ordered (an 8-bit tie--think: Mario pixels), Molly's gift ordered (a bib with a runway on it and a matching airplane spoon! They light up!), Plus, Joan's gift ordered (a book of pictures from us and Evette's family--she complained about not having us in the one the step siblings did last year.), plus more that I can't tell you about. Hehe! I got all the neighborhood gifts out this week too (purple ornaments with a little "reminder" attached about Christ being "King", get it? Royal purple...anyway). I am excited about Christmas, but behind on getting the tree up, we put it together tonight, and will decorate it tomorrow.
I had a terrible night last night of about 4 hours total of sleep. Molly was wide awake for some reason...so, off to bed I go. Goodnight! Happy Holidays!
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Stuff, n' stuff...
Sunday we went up to Deric's grandparent's house. (The Abels) They hadn't seen Molly yet and they basically told us "get your butts up here". So, we went and visited with them a couple hours and saw Pat and Von (Deric's aunt and uncle, the cowboy-Dad's side). Then we went and visited with his half-sister, Monica for a little bit and went to dinner with them. So, we got to see everyone up north, they should be good for another year. ;-)
Monday night was the opening social of the snowmobile club. It was fun. I made Chili and nobody ate any. :-( Sad, so, I froze half of it. I won a hoodie in the prize drawing! Yay, I love hoodies! Got to see some friends and talk with them briefly. We are starting to upgrade this club a bit. It is getting better than just being thrown together each year. It's kinda exciting.
Today we went to the temple for the first time in three years. It is pretty crazy it has been that long...but the last time we were there we asked to get pregnant and River was conceived just days later. I didn't learn anything amazing, but those few moments of pure si9lence and peace in the celestial room were worth it. Molly slept the exact amount of time I was gone too. :-) Good day...
Monday night was the opening social of the snowmobile club. It was fun. I made Chili and nobody ate any. :-( Sad, so, I froze half of it. I won a hoodie in the prize drawing! Yay, I love hoodies! Got to see some friends and talk with them briefly. We are starting to upgrade this club a bit. It is getting better than just being thrown together each year. It's kinda exciting.
Today we went to the temple for the first time in three years. It is pretty crazy it has been that long...but the last time we were there we asked to get pregnant and River was conceived just days later. I didn't learn anything amazing, but those few moments of pure si9lence and peace in the celestial room were worth it. Molly slept the exact amount of time I was gone too. :-) Good day...
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