Getting there...

Well, I went to the doctor today and she checked me so I would know whether or not to go camping. I am a strong 1+ and 75% effaced. Her head is also so far down that Julia had to maneuver around it to get to the cervix...which was unpleasant. So, anytime now I could go into real labor.

We are going up to the Snowmobile club camp out tomorrow. It is about an hour drive to the hospital. So, that would be an interesting scenario. :-P I don't think I want to spend the night, but we will see how I feel when I get there.

Contractions...?

I am having more frequent contractions. I have timed them at 30, 18, and 9 minutes apart. However, they never last longer than a couple hours. So, I dunno what to make of it except that my body is warming up. I was afraid my water broke this morning, but nope. I was happy because unfortunately I have to be on an IV as soon as my water breaks because my Strep test came back positive. So, I have to be on antibiotics through an IV to keep Molly from contracting it. It is really a scary thing...it is life threatening for her to contract it. I also can't be in labor more than 12 hours after my water breaks because it increases the risk. ARGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH! Why can't it just go perfectly well? It's unfair.

Deric is so bored and disappointed with everything; me, his friendship with Justin, etc. He is itching to do things, and really wants this birth to work around it all. I feel like an inconvenience sometimes. It's getting harder and harder to be positive. I just want to be done with this pregnancy, it is putting a lot of strain on my emotions and body. I feel so heavy physically and mentally. Oh well, such is life sometimes.

I feel like I am being a bad mom because River and I have been watching TV everyday for the last couple weeks. It has been really hot and I haven't wanted to go outside at all.

Pioneer Day...

We got the electrical problem fixed. :-) Now I can run all the appliances I want with the AC. I wish we would have been smart and suspected the breaker was bad years ago!

We have been tossing around the idea of getting a new furnace too. Sadly ours is about 30 years old and very out of date. (they don't even use these type anymore) It is also putting off 12 parts per million of carbon monoxide when it is heating our house. Scary when you think that a tiny baby or a child is a lot more susceptible to the deadly effect of this gas. If we were to get one the tax credit would not help us more than about $400 because we never owe taxes at the end of the year (Deric makes sure that only the necessary taxes are taken out throughout the year to give us the most money each month to utilize.) So, we are tossing it around...I am mostly worried about the kids and their little bodies. I also think it would help with how worn out I am during the winter to have our air filtered better and have no noxious gases in the mix. So...we are thinking this may be beneficial. (Since we don't know at what time it will totally die on us too! It is a ticking time bomb...) Tuesday they will be coming to give us a quote on it.

Also, Tuesday we are having our fridge towed away for $30, and we got a $20 rebate from the electric company for getting a new fridge. It seems we are spending a lot of money. :-( We are utilizing all the "deals" though, since these are unfortunately necessary costs. Yay for being a responsible adult with a house! haha.

Today is Pioneer day here in Utah. Which means Deric had the day off, and he helped with the Ham Radio communications side of things for the parade in SLC. He had a good time, and was on tv several times. Fun stuff. We didn't really do anything else that was interesting. I suppose we could go to a rodeo tonight if we wanted to. I went grocery shopping. I got shredded cheese for 99cents a package today and stocked my freezer for the next 6 months--that's a better deal than case lot! I also stocked up on cereal for the next 6 months for $2/box. Which is pretty good considering most name brand cereals are about $4/box. Again, what an interesting life as a Mom and responsible adult. ;-) I love it though, I wouldn't change a thing. Ooo, I also got a raspberry Entenmann's danish today. Heaven.

I stepped on a ridiculously gooey wad of gum in the Walmart parking lot today wearing my favorite flip flops. Gah!

I painted mine and River's toe nails today and shaved my legs. Haha, maybe I subconsciously know I am bound for the delivery room soon...haha!

Electrician

Today an electrician is coming to replace our breaker. We have had issues with not being able to run the dryer and washer at the same time with the AC...or the oven and the dishwasher with the AC...and it is getting *obnoxious*! So, hopefully this fixes it now. :-) We also think it might have been the reason for the fridge going bad...all the power failures that happen because of it. (surges might have made that part bad.) Anyway, so that's fun.

Got music for the blooper reel; some royalty free silent movie music. Fun stuff. Today I am starting on the "finale" of the video....off to work!

Ginny has a boyfriend!?!

Okay, I am totally shocked at the sudden development of my very guy-stubborn sister, Ginny, finding herself the *girlfriend* of a 25 year old guy named Wayne Jackson! WHAT HAPPENED? I really am in shock. I had a hard time focusing on starting my segments for the Trek video last night. Wow...the funny thing was that she confided all this information to Deric and not me...huh. We will see how things develop...

Today, I deep cleaned the bathroom, am folding laundry, cleaned the kitchen, and will be looking for my breast pump, bottles, and boppy cover in all the boxes downstairs. Maybe I will even get to finishing the packing up of Deric's junk. (probably not, considering I need him for the final stuff and he is only interested in doing the Trek video when he gets home. So...yah.

This could very well be the last full week we have as a 3 person family. Wow.

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Yah, I don't think anyone is reading this anymore. Oh well...it does me good to write what I am doing for journaling purposes.

Getting used to the fridge...it's different. Just worked on finishing the basement a little this morning, and the Trek video tonight after we got home from the meeting. I am in charge of doing the bloopers, the separate "overview" video, and the ending "recap" video. I worked on the bloopers tonight. I need to find a song that works.

Fridge woes.

We went camping last night. Spent a nice evening at Willard Bay. It was realllly hot! One hundred degrees this weekend. We went and got a movie; "Bedtime Stories" with Adam Sandler. It wasn't too bad, cheesy, but okay. We got food from Sonic. It was tasty. Then we slept. When we woke up today I spent some time cleaning the trailer and Deric took apart the switch in the dashboard to see why our vents don't work in the truck. (We bought it with the air only coming out of the defroster.) He fixed it by cleaning the pieces! So, he saved us about $300 by not taking it "in" to get looked at and fixed. We decided to come home about 1:00 because we thought we could get a bunch of stuff done at the house we were needing to do. When we got home we found our fridge had stopped working and our freezer was defrosted. YAY. We replaced a part that had gone out in it about 3 1/2 months ago, we are sure it is the same problem. (If we are lucky, they will take back the part and reimburse us for it.) So, we took everything out, put it in the freezer and little fridge downstairs, out in the trailer's fridge, and then took some food across the street to our neighbor's fridge. Then we searched online to see what we wanted. We found it, headed to Home Depot...and they didn't have it in stock. Plus, it would be about 7 days before it would be delivered. :-P Good news though, was all the energy star appliances are 10% off right now and we get a $20 rebate from our power company. Woohoo. They didn't have one of the one we wanted to see there, so we had to go to RC Willey. There they had the same exact fridge, same price, even with the 10% off and they had it in stock in their Salt Lake warehouse which we could go pick up from. SO...we opted to go with that so we would have a fridge. So, he went and got it, brought it home, and we had like 4 guys from our ward come over and help us bring it in. So, here we have a brand new fridge. It is one of the ones with the freezer on the bottom. It has an ice maker that you can change the cube size. An "alarm" for if it is accidentally left open. It is bigger than our old one, so it will last us with more kids to feed.

All in all, it's nice to have new things...but it would have been nice not to *have* to get it right now. Esentially, the money we saved up by putting the money from the couches into another cd is eaten up...so we won't have the $1000 in a savings acct in the end. :-( Sad, but, at least we have a means of paying for it. We are always taken care of. :)

I got my bulk spices order: taco seasoning and vanilla powder. That's cool.

I am nearly done with putting Deric's junk in tupperware downstairs. :-) Yay!

I probably have a little over a week until Molly is here! Wow...

Broken.

Life really *isn't* very good right now. I can't handle ANYTHING.

Swimming...

Last night was the ward pool party. River was afraid of the water at first. Then she got used to it and enjoyed it. She didn't want to leave. Frankly, I didn't either. I was so enjoying how much relief I felt from it. I dunno, it was the first really fun thing I have done in months. I even went down the tube water slide.

Right now I am listening to River screaming at the top of her lungs because she doesn't want to take a nap. I wish I could gain the strength to do something about these feelings...I am just done.

The dog days...

I have been feeling completely blah the last few days. No motivation, no excitement, no ability to be pleasant and happy. It's really frustrating. I just want to get happy! I want to be comfortable! This weekend is supposed to be baking hot, 100 degree weather. Joy. We are going camping at Willard Bay. It should be decent. I can't sleep comfortably in my own bed, so it won't matter if I am in the trailer or not.

I hung all the pictures! I'm happy I did, though my house almost looks cluttered with all the photographs on the walls. Oh well, it's my artwork too...I think I might get some colored fabric to put up with my drapes to tie the pillows and the colored photos in a bit more. It is just too black and brown in there right now.

We started on the Trek video. We did the credits and are working on the "trailsides" and bloopers. It took a while to get everything organized (3 weeks) and now I only have about 2 weeks before I'm hoping Molly will be born...so, I hope to accomplish something or other. I keep feeling like I just won't be able to do much of anything. :-/ Which makes me feel a bit guilty. Oh well again.

I'm just trying to be cheerful...